Am I the Only One?
You hem me in, behind and before, and lay your hand upon me.
Sometimes I believe I am the only one that has ever experienced my particular kind of difficulty.
In my head, I’m thinking, “I must be the only one.”
Hurt, ashamed, insecure, scared.
I am the only one who has ever felt this way. I invented it.
This feeling of aloneness goes for every hard thing in my life, from being married to buying a bathing suit. I must be the only one who isn’t enough and can’t be loved.
The enemy would like for me to believe I am unique. When I feel as if I invented a new form of anxiety, the enemy can plant seeds of doubt. “This is too much for God.” “Even He can’t help you.” “You are the only one grace cannot reach.” And the lies start to stack up.
“You are the single person who feels like a failure as a mom.”
“You are the only individual who can’t do anything right.”
“You are the only person in the world who has been hurt by someone.”
If you have every heard these lies, sister, you are not the only one. You are not alone. These are lies.
I have the same anxieties you do, and if I can’t relate, thousands of women are feeling the same thing you are experiencing right this moment. There is probably a sister who can relate to your situation living on the same street, attending the same church or you passed her when you dropped the kids off at school.
We are everywhere.
For example: If you are uncomfortable in a bathing suit, I understand entirely. (Can you tell this is on my mind?) Are you afraid of heights? Me, too. Do you doubt that God could love you because of your past? I do. Do you sometimes think you are not enough? Again, all the time. You are not alone. In fact, I think we should start a support group--Moms Against Being the Only One (MABOO for short).
Think about this--if you were the only woman on earth, you would not be alone. God will never leave you. He is with you wherever you are. God knows every step you take, every thought you have, and every fear that causes you to hide. In Psalm 139, the psalmist writes that God knows when we sit and when we rise. He knows our thoughts, and He knows our words before we speak. We are hemmed in, behind and before. We are not alone. As the psalm says, “Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; it is high; I cannot attain it.”
You are loved. God loves you more than you can imagine. No earthly love will compare. You are enough. God made you for something amazing, and He has big plans for you. You are not alone. God has hemmed you in with His hand upon you.
It’s comforting to me when I want to run and hide and believe the lies to know that God gave me women who can relate. God designs our life, especially the pain and tragedy, so that we can comfort others when they go through the same trial. The King of Kings has laid out my life so that my past--the hurt, the pain, and the redemption--can comfort another woman. The same goes for you.
Today, if you feel alone, like the only one in that particular situation, ask God to show you the woman who has walked the same path. She is probably standing in the same room or waiting to talk to you at the grocery store. Or, if you find one of your sisters struggling with something you can relate to, tell her she is not alone. We are not alone.
Father God, praise you, praise you that you never leave us alone. You knew us before we were born and you have never left us and never will. Help us remember when we feel alone that you are beside us. Thank you that you have given us a story so we can help others that feel alone. Amen.